Too much to handle.....

Sometimes I feel like things are to much to handle... But I for sure keep holding on...
I am for sure no angel...I have lost touch with who I was in 2009....
It's almost hard to believe how much things have changed in just a year... Here it is almost 2011 and I honestly pray thing are different I hope to start things out so new.....
This year has completely changed me and I do not like who I've become.... And I can't stand who you have become.... I have to wake up everyday and tell myself
"I'm gonna get through this"
But there is only so much one person can take until they eventually fall into pieces, and right now
I am very breakable... It's only gonna take a flick... What drives me so crazy is I feel you don't care about my feelings anymore.... Sometimes I wonder if I even care about yours....
But I really LOVE you.... I thought I could live without you but i cannot....
You are my soul mate I honestly believe that and there is no other for me..... I'm willing to forget about the mistakes but if it happens anymore I know I wont be able to handle it... so just be smart.... cuz i love you more than life....
the wife

Getting Hitched!....

So wooooow! Scotty and I are FINALLY tying the knot on August 29th 2009! Im soooo excited and nervous.... I have wedding on the brain! We are having a masquerade theme wedding! Awesome?!?! I think sooo! So I've been looking for masquerade/ball dress/wedding dress and have found that Maggie Sottero is AMAZING! There is this dress that I want sooooo bad the name of it is Estella and in the picture they show it in the blue mist color and I absolutely love it even in the color! Of course there is no prices on her website and I have to go to Kentucky to get an estimate but honestly I dont care how much it cost! I want that dress!

Masquerade masks there are soooo many of them I dunno which one I like best! I have 7 Bridesmaids and 7 Groomsmen :-) My girls arent going to carry a bouquet they are gonna have the masks on a stick! I think that will be cute! I will wear a mask and carry a bouquet :-) All the guys are going to wear white masks and top hats... Scott of course will get to pick out a cool mask! I think it will be awesome and I'm sooooo looking forward to it! And after its all done We're gonna PARTY LIKE SOME FUCKIN' ROCKSTARSSSS!!!!

Halloween...and Twilight

So! It feels like Halloween outside! My family is definitely HUGE on Halloween. Every year we go all out on costumes and partys. Its my favorite holiday. I'm ready to go to haunted houses and have bonfires:-) So there is this oooolllldd Tuberculosis hospital about 10 min from where I live that is supposed to be haunted. They have tours all year and you can stay overnight or half a night for the right price. Its called Waverly Hills Sanatorium and around this time they have haunted house tours on the weekends...I really want to go! So I'm kinda excited about that. I'm addicted to the show 'Paranormal State' on A&E I watch it when I'm about to go to bed and sometimes I cant sleep! ha ha! I looove scary stuff :-) I want THEM to go to Waverly Hills I think it would be pretty bad ass.


I'm addicted to the Twilight Series! I really love these books! They are easy to love and so are the characters. Can't wait for this movie to come out in December I think its gonna be pretty good. So, yeah I recommend those books!

I have worked 7 days this week and I feel like I got to have NO fun. That drives me crazy!!! But I need overtime so I'm not gonna whine for real because we are not busy at all on weekends... I want a NEW job though. Something interesting and fun.
......................... Any ideas???

xoxo,
Magz