Too much to handle.....

Sometimes I feel like things are to much to handle... But I for sure keep holding on...
I am for sure no angel...I have lost touch with who I was in 2009....
It's almost hard to believe how much things have changed in just a year... Here it is almost 2011 and I honestly pray thing are different I hope to start things out so new.....
This year has completely changed me and I do not like who I've become.... And I can't stand who you have become.... I have to wake up everyday and tell myself
"I'm gonna get through this"
But there is only so much one person can take until they eventually fall into pieces, and right now
I am very breakable... It's only gonna take a flick... What drives me so crazy is I feel you don't care about my feelings anymore.... Sometimes I wonder if I even care about yours....
But I really LOVE you.... I thought I could live without you but i cannot....
You are my soul mate I honestly believe that and there is no other for me..... I'm willing to forget about the mistakes but if it happens anymore I know I wont be able to handle it... so just be smart.... cuz i love you more than life....
the wife